Svc[Service] Today

Today,i went to svc alone as I took bus to Changi Airport and took mrt to expo....i meet Dovel and Joash First on a bench just on the far right of the subway[to my direction].We chat for awhile and we proceed to Expo hall 8 for our svc,jus before the svc starts,I went outside of the hall and find Cheryl,Cheryl managed to rush in time and we managed to avoid seating at the visitor's corner :) After the svc,our Cell Group prepared a "birthday celebration" for Felix,although I'm not close to him,but since his in our Cell Group,we are one small family,after all that we went to changi airport for lunch,Ashton,a place I don't really like :) Xinying's "son" ordered a Espresso for $1.20 and it is really small as the price displayed as $1.20=1.20ml of espresso[well,i think it is less than 1.20ml]

Friend's Son[the way i call Xinying's "son"] taste the espresso followed by Dovel,with a normal expression,and finally Xinying tasted it and her reaction is as if it is bitter like no tomorrow,the expression is......Classical :) and we joke about it...and poor Miguel had a strand of curled up hair on his dish[well,i don't wish to comment further about the hairy issue,but it really wonders me where the hair came from...why is it curl.....xP] after that,we listened to Jody saying about the movie,Devil,sounds interesting to me,and after a few minutes,Joash asked the waiter[who looked like Jair to me but to Joash looks like Ryan Martin] He asked for Mushroom Sauce,when the waiter is at their table he said "you must like this sauce very much!!" and when he reach our table,he said to Joash in a slightly louder tone just nice for Joash's ears,he said again across our 2 tables "You Gonna like this sauce Man!!![plus a rock sign on his hands \m/]" people on my table bursted out laughing,including me ofcourse :) and after we finished our meal,we sat around chit chatting,Joash said something interesting that made me and Dovel seat so close to him,after that we made payment and went to toilet....after that we planned to go home but i suddenly had gastric pain...which stopped me from laughing,but i can't,which made the pain worst because Joash is macho as his chest muscles are big and he can't keep his hands straight when he walk,and xinying try to push it down,which eventually became a joke,after that when they are right above the mrt station,i could'en hold it,I need to make my Gastric pain begone,so i went to toilet,telling Dovel to leave first,somehow,a few minutes later,everything is fine :) and i went to tampines to board 969 to go home,but never did i expect the bus's air con to become hot con [Air conditioner --->Hot conditioner] everybody in the bus was sweating,which only make the situation worst.....when i reach admiralty,i quickly leave the bus,and a breeze went pass my face,i'm glad i survived the suana in the bus,and awhile later,a guy came and ask me for directions,ofcourse I was not sure,but i managed to find and bring him to the place :) i am glad to help him..........and I hope my friend is feeling better about what happened in the afternoon,she might be reading this now,I knew it :)

Tired....

Todays A busy day,i arrived at school at 8.56 am for English although it's a Saturday,we did papers,and while doing papers i am messaging at the same time :p so,after the English Lesson,I went to Bukit Panjang Plaza to pass my time with my group of friends,and i learnt that i can actually loan magazine from Library,16 years of my life,I did not know about this,I'm so ignorant.After we returned to school,we went to our schools' Study Area to meet up with our teacher.We studied physics until we found out that we are the remaining 10 people in the school[number includes teacher].And after our physics lesson,our teacher played with us a game of basketball,and I happened to be the 1st winner,after that our teacher went back and we played by ourselves,it is soccer using basketball,it is the first time I really juggled the ball and kick it on air and goaled,soccer may be fun,but to a certain extent,but I am also not interested in soccer that much.After we left school at 6.10 pm,Daryl and I is talking about paranormal activities we encountered over the years,and we talked until the bus comes,and I ush over to my cousin house for his party,it is busy and tiring for today

Results!!!

Today I received my 'O' Levels mother tongue results,I'm Surprised to know that I've Passed it,not really nicely done,but i've finally passed it,My Oral had a Merit :) after i received my results i heard my friends considering to retake their exams,so i thought it over and I've decided to resit for it.And when i returned to class,my chemistry teacher gave us our chemistry preliminary papers,and i was delighted to see that I've scored 40/50.Today is really a wonderful day,Two results screened to me and both I've done well :)

A sad story.......

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!


I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak

today i went to svc with my Cg friends and after svc we went to town and we walked for hours in malls...tis is the first time i walked so long in malls around the towns...

Oral!!!

Today I took my English Oral Examination at my school's library,i am the third candidate,while the first was Wilson and second Yu Qin,Wilson was so emotionally stable tat he teased Yu Qin and me,who is nervous....i was nervous in the waiting room,but as i saw the passage and the picture,it all seems so easy,and when I arrived before the examiners,I managed to compose myself,I did not panic,and the conversation with the examiners is great!!!! :)

Changes....

Today i Had a crazy day...not because of my friends,but somehow,i don't know how,i've gotten more and more "cheerful",when i am in bus service number 912,when i listen to my sad songs...somehow i feel uncomfortable...i never had this feeling,but now i feel it.My negative nature changed after I met a girl called Elin....although we sms more than we talk to each other,i'm happy that shes not finding me irritating,she's someone who i never thought i'll fall for,but I still did,slowly and unknowingly,My friends told me that I like her before I realize it.....after this,my life headed to a cheerful side,never a Emotional side again,because ur the one who changed me,I thank you for asking me for donation :) I Love You :)hahaha

Cutted...

Today...early in the morning i went to school...when i make my way to the church gate towards my school,Elin was behind in the bus behind mind,i saw her in a rush and she msged me saying she saw me,when i saw the msg she is already beside me,raynald got whacked by wilson tan 5 punches in the rib and he clamed tat his entire body gone cramped,saliver dripped from his mouth...well i know its disgusting....anyway,after the whole incident and after EC,we went to DNT workshop...and my hand got cut by the saw which cuts metal and Ruoliu borrowed me her plaster as a result

Dreamy...

Today is a sleepy day...but i manage to do maths well for only today...

Rain!!!

Today is a rainy day...im drenched once again and my umbrella spoiled because i swing it too much as a form of drying and the metal broke...During EC,i found out that Elin is waiting for me in the canteen...i felt guilty ,soon after EC,i went to the canteen as fast as i could to find her...it is raining heavily...maybe not too heavy,and Elin need a umbrella,remembering that i did have a umbrella,so i gave it to her...so we went to make our way to the church bus stop,after that we were crazy doing stupid stuff there and raynald is somehow possessed by the "umbrella spirit" and holding a folded umbrella on his mouth as if its a mic,his dying to have a concert of his own probably,and Elin should be exposed to rain already,hope she wont fall sick when shes nt feeling well already....I'll pray for you...

Design And Technology

Today I Finally Got The Momentum To Do My DnT All The Way Till The Deadline!!!!Yeah,Rush Through All Projects

Sec 4 Study Camp:) :(

Just One more day to camp,well,its just a study camp....not as fun as adventure or leadership training camp,and....i hope that it would be a meaningful camp......well...I hope so,haha

Arms dislocated AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nearly Fainted

Today is the health check up for all sec 4 students,and It happened to fall on my class design and technology period,just after my check up ended,i was sitting down with my friends,we were chatting about class issues and editing lyrics,and just when i stood up,I donno why but my body started to dance like some dance maniac,and when im doing the ending movement,I shouted for my friends,i need their help now,A needle longer then my finger pierced through my leg,It was not bleeding initially,after 5 mins of trying to get the needle out,because the needles too long so it took quite a while,on the sixth min,my blood started to stain my socks,my socks were filled with fresh blood,I urge my friends to buy a plaster,and I asked my other friends for tissue,as soon as I cleared the surface of my leg,more blood were coming out,just when I thought I had stopped the bleeding,I place the plaster over my leg,immediately blood rushed out of the wond and stained the white cotton wool,in a sec time,the white cotton patch turned to blood cotton patch....during my mother tongue class my wound had been bleeding when i could not take it anymore,I asked my teachers permission to go to the toilet to wash my blood away,and until the school ends then the wound stopped bleeding,my head begin to spin,I was going to faint,luckily my friend was by my side helping me,and I could nt lose too much blood because Im anemic,my lips turned white when my friend told me,I got shocked and I make my way to the nearest water cooler as fast as i could and i drank a lots of water,just when i thought it would be useful,my stomach rumbled...and i happened to be rushing for another issue so...i dont care about anything else and i just attend for the issue that requires me to be present,and my leg started bleeding again,in about 8 min,the bleeding stopped,after the event is over,when i went to the toilet,my nose started bleeding,and i really lost my balance in front of the toilet mirror,after a while i regained my balance and raynald[a friend of mine]came in and saw me bleeding in my nose,i stopped the bleeding in about 6 min....today is my lucky day as i did not faint by losing so much blood,maybe its a lesson to learn,or perhaps a blessing in disguise...........

Disabled

Today at Judo Training,we had intensive training because of the upcoming competition on sunday at lavender.....I got Injured by ben because My leg was in his whole body weight,my leg literally crushed like a piece of meat minced to pieces by back of blades...my veins were located wrongly as a result..........maybe i will be walking to sch like a crippled tomoro when im going to school,[high possibility of being late],and my legs are swollen now,but i will try to recover before sunday;the competition day....

Dying...

Today,I went for My Judo Training Without My Judogi[which is my uniform for Judo Training],I suffered from massive mat burn on my Legs,Back,and etc...I really liked the training as we get to be thrown by the instructors and it's a wonderful experience because the moment the Instructor throw me over,my world just flipped turning upside-down,it suits me because I felt that my world really is flipped upside-down by my friends,although the training is tough...but it no longer stops me from getting in to extreme training because I promised myself that I would not stop at nothing in search of power...since my friends wish to trample over me...It will soon be my time to overpower them,I will retaliate very soon...very soon,and I will always remember,u all are the ones who filled my heart with hatred,anger,loneliness and vengeance.....

Dislocation

New Record Of me dislocating my arms 3 times within 1 Hr 30 Min during Physical Activity

Meaningless.......

Life has separated me from my friends....my friends accused me for insulting her when I did not do it,I'm not a great man,and I have my flaws,but I don't like to insult other people,and I don't like that when I,from a normal man,into a deadly sinner,a sinner who insulted others.And she,who is the lier became a victim,the world is turning up-side down...it's simply ridiculous when I did nothing wrong and i became WRONGED,my friends said that i am very difficult to understand as i'm too complicated,and the reason is that they did not take any effort to understand me...and the most craziest thing that humans can ever encounter is that i can't even have a chance to speak to my friends,when i'm about to speak and they will just hope that i would not say anything by saying just a word...."music"....and i don't care about them,but they insulted the girl that I love,and I can't just sit back and do nothing,and thats the only thing that I wish to say,it is them who made me lost trust in everything that I do and I once trusted,and they are the reason why I started to hate people more and more.......and I also hate myself more...